You know its been a while since you blogged when your computer no longer remembers your password, and neither do you. After several attempts however, here I am.

Maybe no one else has noticed my absence but I have. I'm sure its my discouragement that keeps me silent. I want to come on here report nothing but success, but failure is all I have. Thats not the only reason I haven't reported in lately, I have, thankfully, been extremely busy! If I don't keep my mind busy it tends to wander off on its own into strange and bizarre places that only serve to fuel my anxiety.

For one, I recently learned that the music director at the radio station I've been volunteering at for the last year is getting done. I will miss her, but I want her job soooo bad! I spent an entire week on my resume to make sure it was as perfect as possible, and I was still up at 130 am the night before I turned it in to the station director putting the final touches on it. I'm very optimistic that I will get this job. For one I have been working along side the now former music director for the last 3 years! I have experience! I already know half the job! Well, at least 1/4 of it. I'm still waiting to be interviewed, the station director has been away for the last week and a half so interviews have been on hold. I"m so excited, its everything I've ever wanted to do when I went to the New England School of Communications over ten years ago now. The best part is its only part time, 20 flexible hours, so it will not interfere with my mothering, and wifely duties. I pray, that I get it.

The other thing I've been working on is getting my health in order. I've had to pretty major health issues going on, both have been ongoing for years. The first thing is my stomach. I have had this deep, horrible, pain in my stomach for years. I've had several test done over the years, all inconclusive. A week ago I finally had an upper GI. I've been putting it off because all I've ever heard is how unpleasant it is, but you know you what? It wasn't that bad. I certainly did test my gag reflex, but all in all, if I had to do it again, I would. My final result was gastritis. I'd never heard of it but apparently its not serious. It can develop into terrible things like stomach cancer if left untreated, but I am now getting treated so I'm not concerned.

So the final question is how much weight have I lost. After all, this is suppose to be about my weight loss journey. Well, the answer is... Nothing. Thats right. Still a big fat goose egg! I don't even know what to do anymore. Not give up. Thats the only answer I have right now.