Maybe its time I just except I will be fat forever and try my best to live out the rest of my days as happy as someone possibly can knowing that their life is going to be struck tragically short due to something that in spite of all their best efforts, they can do nothing about. Hows that sentance for you? Does it run on long enough? I probly could have made it longer. Thats a project for another day.

Seriously however...

My little guy is almost a year now. Thats means that its been almost a year of struggling with no results what so ever. It makes me want to cry.

I keep wanting to go back to a low carb way of life. Its worked when I initially tried loosing weight, and it worked after I had my little girl. Why isn't didn't work last time I tried?

well anyway, I had my first irish step dancing lesson tonight. It was awesome. I had so much fun. I can't wait for next weeks class and I've been practicing what I learned already. I got my ghillies already but I can't wait til the recital so I can get my dress! I just want to look really cute in it and I know I'm not going to:( With any luck at all maybe I'll take off some pounds by then, but I'm doubting it.