I keep telling myself to just keep doing the right thing and you'll at least feel good in knowing that you are being pro-active, I don't know why I lie to myself so much

As of today I have officially lost, exactly, no pounds at all. Not even an ounce. After 16 months of this its starting to get just a little discouraging.

Every where I look, it seems, all those who are close to me are just dropping weight. My sister in law is smaller every time I see her. I have a friend who just posted a picture of her 40 lbs weight loss, I don't think I've ever seen her so small, and of course there is my friend who has lost over 100 pounds and looks amazing! Don't get me wrong, they all have worked so hard for what they have and they deserve their happiness and their bragging rights, and I'm 100% happy for all of them, but I am so damn jealous! Every time I see them or a new picture I just want to cry. That's probably wrong of me, but I just can't help it. I just wish I could understand why its not happening for me when I"m trying so hard, and doing everything right.

Just last week I stopped I taking my hormonal birth control. Its my last resort. If this doesn't work then I don't know what I'll do. I plan on giving it at least 3 months because I've heard it can take up to three months for the hormones to work their way out of your system. Of course thats the same advice I took six years ago, and ended up three months pregnant at my own wedding, but thats another story